When I reflect on some decisions, I don’t usually feel regret simply because regret is a selfish thing; a way of saying “you didn’t deserve that side of me.” However, I’m just barely placing my eye around the scope of the events that just unfolded in front of me and regret is something that is being changed in my view. Picture something terribly dramatic happening between you and someone that is possibly insecure with themselves, keep in mind I am very secure. Then, imagine this person pursuing his desires but feeling regret on his part and you stuck in a chamber of confusion and possibly regret. “You didn’t deserve that side of me” easily changed into “I didn’t deserve that side of me.” Respect is an honorable trait and everyone has the makings of being respectable however can everyone respect themselves? In this moment, I need to fins the respect I have for myself and just brush this matter aside like dirt on the porch but this is weird. Things like this have happened before and I have no idea why it’s different now. Sometimes I’m confused and sometimes I’m mortified by other people’s actions but right now I’m suffering from the selfish, indignant feeling of regret.
Basically, I think that shouldn’t have happened but I really wanted it to but now it’s awkward.
A picture that makes me laugh by request.
Reposted because it just gets better every time I see it.